Recently, my ever-so-wonderful husband, Brett, showed me an article about procrastination.
A week or so later and I hadn’t read it yet, even though he swore it was a good read.
However, when I did finally get around to forcing myself to read it, it really opened up my eyes about how much I connected with what the author was saying. It’s an old entry from around 2013. I was afraid it would be a boring read, but I actually read through it pretty quickly.
Everything that the author said made sense to me. Not just as an outsider, but in a “that just happened to me yesterday” kind of sense.
I am constantly thinking up things that I want to do and try. I have about 6 cosplay projects planned (hello, McCrEevee and friends), numerous signs that I want to make for people, a couple of smaller crafts, making new decals for my Etsy store, plus I want to try learning the cello, continue learning photography, learn Japanese and Spanish (and probably Korean, too), keep my shop running and write/keep up with my blog.
The problem is, the list of things I want to do is so long that by the time I have time to do something, I can’t decide and just shut down, instead. I won’t even want to watch TV/Netflix/Hulu when I get like that and, other than sleeping, that’s the laziest thing I could do.
He brings up a good point in the article; any free time I have feels unearned and I feel guilty for not getting harder things (ie; “have-to-do” items like laundry, dishes, even cooking) accomplished. It just kind of derails you into feeling worthless and full of self-loathing.
I think the first step is realizing that there is an issue and learning to work with it. While I would much rather play Overwatch or watch TV for my entire day off (Oh, hi, couch, how I’ve missed you), I have to learn to put it down and do something productive. I don’t have many panic monsters in my life right now, so it makes it a little difficult finding my way out of the dark playground.
I guess what I’m saying is that it is a struggle keeping up with everything. I brought it on myself without any planning or preparation, so now I’m facing the consequences of that. I’m glad that Brett shared the article with me; I think it’s good advice and information for anyone who finds themselves in a similar situation.
One step at a time, though!
Finishing McCrEevee’s tail is the first step on my long list and his 3D printed parts for the gun and belt buckle are on the way. I already have paint and brushes so I am ready to start!
Now if only the laundry would fold itself…